i am so sick of drama. i dont know why its following me, its so gay. i hate that im not "allowed" to hang out with a certain person because other people had a bad past with them. i have respect for people but give me a break. its almost ridiculous cause thats that past and has NOTHING to do with me. let me be a big girl and form my own opinions. im just tired of it, and i feel like everybody expects so much from me. im only one person, i can only do so much. yea i wanna help people out but sometimes things come up, sometimes you get sick and spend a whole day and night throwing up and crapping. it sounds kinda funny, but im not laughing right now. im sorry i cant always be that shoulder everyone needs to lean on. sometimes i just cant live up to that. its not my fault, im only human. im not perfect, so what do you expect? i kinda just wanna go into hibernation for a while so maybe people will just forget about me for a while. i know that sounds bad but i just cant take it anymore. i need a breath of fresh air and i feel like im suffocating. im not saying no one can rely on me, because you can. you just cant help stuff sometimes. and maybe right now my priorities are outta whack but i can easily kick em back in. i just gotta realize it and change it. i just cant stand when people are pissed at me for things i cant control. im sorry if i dissapoint and im sorry im not such a strong shoulder. i guess i cant do anything right...